Im not even sure if this blog gets read anymore, since I never post much anymore. And I appologize in advance for incorrect grammar or spelling, I am doing this from my phone so please bare with me.
I find myself running through different emotions tonight and all for good reason, just not sure why there are so many. I guess that Im what you would call a thinker. Someone who is constantly worrying about the past, present and future. Everything you could ever imagine, I think it every day. Not sure if Im just strange or if everyone does this.
For example, I think of the obvious first, my family. My husband is amazing and I love him like crazy. My kids are hellians, but I love them with every fiber of my being. My mother, because she is amazingly strong. My father... oh how I miss him. My siblings, because they are the best there is. My friends, because they still like me even though Im nuts. Then it gets serious... bills, exes, things that break, trust, hatred, bullying, more stress and the list grows.
Im not sure why Im writing this. Especially here. But I suppose its due to the fact that its after midnight and Im still awake because my mind wont rest until I vent.
I need to let go of things so that I can function properly. Maybe Im just being a baby. Meh, who knows. Im feeling pretty crappy tonight. Not the best Mom today. Life is precious. Family is all that is important. Something that I need to remember. I need to work on my communication skills a tad bit. Then I might not feel so shitty. Wish me luck.... Goodnight everyone. And sleep tight.
xo-Jackie
