No clue.

I have no idea what to write tonight. Usually every New Years I write a Journal entry about my year and my thoughts about the New Year ahead of me but right now I feel like I have a major case of Writers block!

This year I have been through more than I ever thought that I could handle! Honestly, I have my Heavenly Father to thank! He has answered prayer.... upon prayer..... upon prayer! Life would get so bad that I honestly was scared to think about what the next day would bring. I couldn't handle much more than I dared to. It made me so sad to think about what my kids were going through if my days were that bad. But somehow, every day, I forced a smile on my face and made the very best of things, and it was then that I knew that Heavenly Father was listening. He was trying to lighten my load so to speak.

Out of all the hard things James and I have had to deal with, I would have to say that if tomorrow is another bad day... it's okay, A good one will come along.

I am so grateful for everyone that has influenced my life this past year. I hope that everyone has a GREAT New Year. I hope its a safe Holiday for everyone traveling and celebrating!

I guess this is goodbye 2011.... Goodnight.

New Years Quotes!

--An optimist stays up until midnight to see the new year in.  A pessimist stays up to make sure the old year leaves.  ~Bill Vaughan
--A New Year's resolution is something that goes in one year and out the other.  ~Author Unknown

--Be always at war with your vices, at peace with your neighbors, and let each new year find you a better man.  ~Benjamin Franklin
--Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right.  ~Oprah Winfrey

--Ring out the old, ring in the new,
Ring, happy bells, across the snow:
The year is going, let him go;
Ring out the false, ring in the true.
~Alfred, Lord Tennyson, 1850

December 22...

Every year on this day, my day starts the same. I wake up, stare at my Dad's picture on my dresser, and all my memories start flooding my head. Today marks the day he slipped into a coma. Eight years. Eight long hard years. You would think that the day that he passed away was the only hard day... but it was a two week long nightmare.

He was taken via Life Flight from Richfield to Provo December 22, 2003. I will never forget everything that happened on that day. I had felt heartache before, but nothing like this. Something that we couldn't deny was in fact happening. We prayed and hoped things would get better. Things weren't the same. Christmas wasn't the same.

My oldest was barely 10 months old, he would never know his Grandfather, and how much he was loved by him.

This photo was taken when my son was 15 mins old. He was a big baby at birth, so his Grandpa Childs called him 'Overload' and his 'Big Boy'.